not a lot of posts 'cause i've been ass busy lately. i bought the domain today and am making the new website but it's fucking slow and tedious. i spent all day today working up this magnificent site with frames and javascript and everything only to realize that i can't do somthing that is ENTIRELY necessary with the frames in the site, so i'm gonna have to go back and redo it all with tables which is cock. on top of that sophie, upon seeing the new site, said that the old one was infinitely better and i should use that... :S

i've managed to fall behind by a day again. i blame my lack of an eraser even though that's obviously not he problem. it's nice to blame things anyway.

some intense moments of annoyance and punching things today. i feel better now...oh shit, i forgot to call louisa :S but yeah. goodnight folks.
posted by Jer Clarke at 02:13

finally got two strips done in one day...even if one of them is really not a strip at all and just something that i pulled out of my ass.
due to it's suckiness, i've decided that this crap blog deserves it:

wow, wasn't that amazingly bad?

no other news. finished an hour early and still manage to go to bed an hour late. i am jer, hear me stupid!
posted by Jer Clarke at 00:48

i've decided that i'm officially a shy chicken shit.
yesterday i was on the bus and i noticed that there was a really cute girl next to me. despite the redundance, i think the attraction was based on the fact that she reminded me of someone, but this time i think it was someone famous, but don't know who. there were some other people talking about getting a taxi after getting off the bus at the end of the line, and this girl just pops up asking if she'd want to split with them. it ended up not working out (she was going to ile bazar and apparently it was not on the same path as their destination) but the girl actually just asked the whole bus in a general way if they were going to ile bazar. everyone just kind of ignored her, myself included.
point is, i really wanted to start a conversation with her, i was feeling hungover and couldn't read and i know a conversation with someone like that would have cheered me up. i even had an opening line "so what's in ile bazar?'. so i sat there for 10 minutes trying to work up the courage, and ended up getting off without even acknowledging her existence. It's moments like those that make me thank lord i'm not single, if i was, i'd be kicking myself instead of just feeling lame.
definitely a good moment to be in love with someone =)

sim came over and we drew comics together. it's such a damn infectious medium, it's power is unending and anyone can do it with just a pencil and some paper. since i put up the site i've had...[checks] 18 guest strips, and only a few were repeat creators. that means 15 people who were inspired by me to try a new medium. could i have done similar with film? prose? probably not. especially considering that there are probably more people who've tried to make their own movies than comics.

god i love the internet. infinite information absorbtion possibility, and infinite free publishing possibility. it give you the motivation to do what you want without costing you thousands just to get it out of your damn bedroom.

birthday's coming up in a month. parents said they'd invest in a domain for me. woot, i will soon be kickin' it not shit.
posted by Jer Clarke at 14:13

been feeling pretty hungover today, the subway was tasty but like always i ended up having too much (damn freeness). went to hmv with jamie and checked out the punk section, they had against me and mountain goats, but only one single from each :(

posted by Jer Clarke at 19:59

went to foufounes with jon and jamie and steph ended up being there. it was really fun but we didn't end up dancing, just drinking ourselves into a stupor. the big problem as far as i can tell was the guys who were buying big rounds of shots for everyone. i can handly my own beer consumption, but throw in a couple of wandering shots and i'm fucked. and i was. but i did have a lot of fun talking to new people, notably about comics. FINALLY SOMEONE ELSE WHO UNDERSTANDS DK2!!!

stumbled home with jamie falling asleep everywhere, got home and lindsay had taken down the christmas tree and put it in louisa's(my girlfriend) room where it obviously didn't fit :S so i had to sleep on the couch (louisa is away for the weekend).

now it's saturday and i'm going out for subway at 3:00 for breakfast. WOOT for free subway.
posted by Jer Clarke at 11:30

just so you know, i'm purposely not linking to my site, this is different and for different reasons. don't worry though, the art sucks and all the stories are in here anyway. i've actually decided to use this space to record everything and to clarify ideas for comic-making purposes.

cheers.
posted by Jer Clarke at 14:17

louisa came over last night (she's going away for the weekend so i wanted to see her) so i didn't have time to get two strips done, though i was pretty proud of the one that i did get done so all is well in the world :)

right before my alarm clock went off this morning i was dreaming that i was holding louisa in my arms, and telling her how much i loved her. normally i hate the alarm (it has one of those REALLY irritating tones) but coming out of that dream i was so happy that i didn't care. I turned over and kissed louisa, told her about the dream. there were (are) times when i'm not sure of anything, and i question what i'm doing with the whole thing. but today i feel nothing but sublime happiness and love for louisa. why can't it always be like this?

amazing weather today. it was warm and misty in the morning ,and warm and sunny in the afternoon. sometimes i think that maybe i obsess about the weather too much, but i think it's just the changing season that's getting me. i always love the changes, if not the seasons themselves. autumn has a smell, spring has a texture. winter is just fucking cold and summer is just fucking hot, but that's cool too. :)

yay everything, super day so far. i think i WILL go to foufounes with jon and his gang. i wonder if i can stop myself from drinking too much?
posted by Jer Clarke at 14:15

coffee this morning for essay-oriented brain activity, and it may have actually worked. It went pretty smoothly, me using my previous knowledge of Camus to my great advantage. this is probably bad though. every time i wing it and succeed i'm one step closer to not doing homework next time, and it doesn't always pan out.

i got 95 on my essay outline thing though, which is worth 10% and 85 on my oral which i previously though i'd totally bombed.

there was this girl on the bus today, you know those people that you can't help but think are attractive even though they aren't really all that spectacular? and you can't help but think that they must remind you of someone you already know? she was like that. i helped her edit her film last semester when i was working for the film teacher and she seemed to remember me. i think she might kind of remind me of louisa. i was watching her, thinking about how people move differently when they're in public, even if they don't think anyone is looking, and i think she saw me cause she seemed to look over at me nervously a couiple of times. It's weird cause now that i think of it i've seen her around school a bunch of times in the last little while. anyway, when i got off the bus (she was sitting near the door) she smiled at me nervously, now i can't say for sure, but since i helped her with the editing i dont' think she's said hello once... weird long and boring no?

big debate day; argument with kieren and james about the principles of linear-universe time travel. i said it was like bill and ted, they said that the person would somehow replicate or something. it was crazy gibberish. argument with tim and james over whether you could use your last wish to get a new genie. they said that robin williams created a genie at the end of alladin, but i said that that process had required a human being (powerfull sorcerer jafar) to ASK for it directly, and that the "not making people fall in love" rule extended to all crimes against free will, which wouild certainly include condemning someone to an existence of wish-granting slavery.

i was supposed to do two strips today (will i EVER stop whining about this?) but ended up looking at porn instead. damn you cock.
posted by Jer Clarke at 17:48

self-destructive/sordid tendencies end here. no more will i do that or such. i can control myself beyond the level of an animal if i try.

they tried to bomb saddam in his house or whatever before killing innocent people, i guess that's kind of good.
i was thinking that i'd really like to see the americans get their asses kicked, but that that would just mean more senseless death on both sides of the war, which i wouldn't want to have on my concience. plus for every fucking american that dies in this thing ther'll be more support/hate for the whole thing to feed on.
i hope this ends quickly so as many people survive as possible. i hope it ends quickly so that i don't have to hear about it anymore.

pretty proud of today's strip, it's got a really different format that i think worked out pretty well. i need to work on my lettering. lately it's been readable, but not good enough for anything important. the art's been okay but not consistent, i need to find a better inking technique, the sharpees are crap. but should i go with new nibs or a couple of microns? the microns are pretty tempting, but can i afford the investment?

failed to work on my essay for english, decided to just write "fuckwad" on my forehead with a permanent marker instead, i hear that's sexy these days.

i am abusing the privilege of this damn blog. luckily i have no readers. i've decided to not put a counter on this even though it's really tempting. e-mail me if you actually read this, you don't even have to say anything, just send me an email saying you saw it, and how you got here 'cause i don't even know how anyone could :)
posted by Jer Clarke at 00:26

just finished pencilling and inking the strip and i went upstairs to get a snack (disgusting bbq dorritos, why would anyone what these?), and passed the tv. regularly scheduled programming had been interrupted by a newsfeed of irak. no bombs yet, they were showing the empty peacefull skies of a country that was about to be blown up. 5 cameras throughout bagdad were telling us that no, we hadn't killed them YET, but that if we were patient, we COULD SEE THE WHOLE THING BEGIN. it's like a horrible reality show where we get to watch prisoners get executed, but don't know exactly when it'll happen. pretty sick really...

i'm on the edge of my goddamn seat.

i have no time for this damn war.
posted by Jer Clarke at 22:02

decided that today would be a good day to skip gym (which is golf, 1 hour, and too much hassle for the danger). so instead i got high and watched the lion king with jamie.

i get really annoyed with the things i do sometimes. i'll do something self-destructive to achieve something sordid, which i never achieve, and have to do the same self-destructive again later in another attempt. it's stupid and the pattern is really gaetting annoying.

kat came up for a few days so i saw her. it was really awkward, but then it always is. she broke up with her boyfriend recently and was really upset about it. i was never good at talking to sad people, i lack nice things to say, and when i was going to tell her that she has nothing to worry about because she's beautiful all i could come up with is that she should wear less makeup...

yesterday i slacked in english class (partly cause i was ass tired and partly cause that's just my stupid style) instead of doing my in class essay thing. so now i have to do it all tomorrow morning, and am not at all prepared. thus i have to get SOMETHING done on the subject so i'm not going in blind with an hour and a half to write two drafts of an essay.

i also theoretically have 2 strips that should get done tonight, but i'm way past even TRYING for that one. looks like i'm gonna have to stay behind some more.

it's 8 o'clock and i have about 5 hours of work ahead of me. that puts me in sleepytown tomorrow. i need a box full of time, one that i can just reach into and pull out a couple of hours to use for important things...can you get those on ebay?
posted by Jer Clarke at 19:51

finished the comic late, but i'm also relatively proud of it, especially my own face, so i guess that's justified.
leaving for louisa's now.
posted by Jer Clarke at 20:56

got home and no one was here, i really need to invest some time in getting myself a damn key. I had to sleep on the damn swingbench on my front porch. at least it's a warm day...
sleep was good, not enough though. comic time, then off to louisa's. I lost her monkey though, makes me sad to a degree that i'm not sure i'm comfortable with.
posted by Jer Clarke at 16:36

i stayed up till 1:30 last night for no good reason at all, now i'm fucking tired. I went to hang around at kasey's for an hour of my spare between classes and could barely stay awake. i was actually falling asleep sitting up :S

i'm in the school computer lab full of filthyanusschool computers. i'm next to a dotmatrix printer that is spewing foth a consistent stream of noise and poorly printed documents.

today needs to be a busy day i'f i'm going to get two strips done. get on the damn ball jer.

posted by Jer Clarke at 11:32

ungrateful biped says:
one of the crazies at abbott was tearing up bandersnatches
Protect me from what I want... says:
yeah it was pretty good
ungrateful biped says:
(the newspaper)
Protect me from what I want... says:
crazies?
Protect me from what I want... says:
i know the newspaper
ungrateful biped says:
he was in a chair, tearing it into strips all day long
ungrateful biped says:
from like 8 to 3
ungrateful biped says:
he worked up a solid pile up to his knees at one point
ungrateful biped says:
all around him
ungrateful biped says:
then he sorts through all the strips and throws them out
ungrateful biped says:
he musta done like 9 copies
ungrateful biped says:
a very dilligent
ungrateful biped says:
worker
ungrateful biped says:
he always checks his watch too
Protect me from what I want... says:
uh huh
ungrateful biped says:
no time to waste!
ungrateful biped says:
and his eyes suck so he has to bring his watch right up to his face.
ungrateful biped says:
maybe i'll do a strip about it...
Protect me from what I want... says:
creepy
ungrateful biped says:
not really
ungrateful biped says:
it was neat
ungrateful biped says:
he wasn't creepy at all
ungrateful biped says:
just a hard worker
ungrateful biped says:
it's nice to come sit down
ungrateful biped says:
and know that someone isnt' going to give up on their responsibilities just 'cause said responsibilities are pointless and crazy
ungrateful biped says:
it's reasurring
ungrateful biped says:
like a warm bath,
ungrateful biped says:
full of shreds of stupid newspaper
posted by Jer Clarke at 00:46

damn, the art on todays' comic really sucked, it's not even clear that i'm supposed to be a kid. and i saved OVER yesterday's 300dpi file which means that if i ever want to print it (and damn if it wasn't my favorite of the 60 so far) i'm gonna have to recolor it, which took like 2 hours the first time :S

i wonder if i should eat... i feel hungry, but i'm just gonna eat in the morning anyway, and anything i have now will just be more calories that i will fail to process... what's worse, being paranoid that you're eating too much or being paranoid that you're anorexic?


posted by Jer Clarke at 00:45

despite my best efforts (slack as they are) i am still behind on the strip by a day. i really have to get on the ball and start finishing them faster and not wasting so much damn time of stupid crap...like this blog for instance.
if you are reading this i'm not sure what to tell you...i draw a daily journal comic that i publish on the internet. all my feelings, thoughs and creative force go into that and it takes up most of my free time (also college student). HOWEVER everyone i know also reads the damn thing like it's crack, so i'm wary of saying anything that would piss people off, but more importantly shit that would hurt people's feelings and make them upset when it's not really that important.
i think mostly i want this thing so i have a place where i can come and type shit, pretend people are actually listening, and not have to spend 3 hours drawing processing and coloring a comic (which i'm not even that good at by the way). see, i end up envying my friends who can do that, and don't. so i'm gonna start.

the result? you get the runoff of my life. the shit that was either not interesting enough or too scandalous to go into my comic. enjoy...*cough*
posted by Jer Clarke at 23:52